{"id":1761,"date":"2018-07-16T08:00:34","date_gmt":"2018-07-16T15:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/?p=1761"},"modified":"2018-07-16T16:25:28","modified_gmt":"2018-07-16T23:25:28","slug":"makeover-by-sarah-gray","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/?p=1761","title":{"rendered":"Makeover by Sarah Grey"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-1763\" src=\"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/Koga_Badende-300x234.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"234\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/Koga_Badende-300x234.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/07\/Koga_Badende.jpg 750w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><br \/>\nThis was me <em>before<\/em>, when I was<br \/>\nLilah Jean<br \/>\nTwo-seat top down smoothest ride around.<br \/>\nButtercream sunscreen coins in my bra,<br \/>\nthe sand on my skin a doublesweet nip,<br \/>\nsucralose and spice.<\/p>\n<p>Queenie, they called me,<br \/>\nor Jeanie-baby, bikini brown and round<br \/>\nas a golden egg.<\/p>\n<p>(But what&#8217;s a cocktail without some lime<br \/>\nto scald those sunkissed lips?)<\/p>\n<p>This was me offering myself<br \/>\nwestward, oceanbound, altarbound,<br \/>\na sunlight sacrifice<br \/>\ntender to the bite of a highway<br \/>\ncoiling out to catch<br \/>\neverything warm, anything soft.<\/p>\n<p>(What&#8217;s the fun in the hunt<br \/>\nif you&#8217;re never the prey?)<\/p>\n<p>Packs of cars in a gridlock snare<br \/>\ncleaved mountains to flee,<br \/>\nand every last one hummed<br \/>\n<em>run little one run.<\/em><br \/>\nBut the zip-tie freeways bound me tight<br \/>\nand the sunlight lashed me raw.<\/p>\n<p>(Eat like a bird, never a buzzard.<br \/>\nLet the carcass lie.)<\/p>\n<p>Look at me now.<br \/>\nBrown roots and sinkholes<br \/>\nswallowing plum-rouged bone.<br \/>\nDo you see the shade of hate<br \/>\nI use to line my lips?<\/p>\n<p>Do you know my name?<br \/>\nCall me Queenie Cast off Her Throne.<br \/>\nCall me Jeanie-baby-cold-as-shale.<\/p>\n<p>(Black your eyes after sundown strikes.<br \/>\nPrey needs camouflage.)<\/p>\n<p>I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll tell you the secrets I\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ve learned<br \/>\nof this place:<\/p>\n<p>By day it\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s a vagabond liar,<br \/>\na vaudeville ne\u00e2\u20ac\u2122er-do-well villain clad in rags,<br \/>\ncoaxing doubloons from tourists and dunes,<br \/>\npawning castoff souls.<\/p>\n<p>But damn, does it clean up nice by night.<br \/>\nBlack tie, white-heat summer-boy smile<br \/>\nto kiss the days right out of your veins,<br \/>\nand it mixes a ruthless mojito<br \/>\nheavy on the lime.<\/p>\n<p>(Beware the venom in a gentleman\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s kiss<br \/>\nif you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re still warm, still soft.)<\/p>\n<p>This is me <em>after<\/em>. They call me<br \/>\nLilah<br \/>\nlily-white<br \/>\nash skin and opium wit,<br \/>\npale as undeath, thin as woe.<br \/>\nGet fucked Friday midnight closing time couture<br \/>\nin vinyl black as the absent moon.<\/p>\n<p>There\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s sugar-white sand on my lips<br \/>\nand poison in my teeth,<br \/>\nand I know now<br \/>\nhow to squeeze someone tight.<\/p>\n<h6>illustration is Koga Badende by Koga Harue<\/h6>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This was me before, when I was Lilah Jean Two-seat top down smoothest ride around. Buttercream sunscreen coins in my bra, the sand on my skin a doublesweet nip, sucralose and spice. Queenie, they called me, or Jeanie-baby, bikini brown and round as a golden egg. 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