{"id":2035,"date":"2019-06-17T07:23:08","date_gmt":"2019-06-17T14:23:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/?p=2035"},"modified":"2019-06-17T16:47:29","modified_gmt":"2019-06-17T23:47:29","slug":"the-beetle-wife","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/?p=2035","title":{"rendered":"The Beetle Wife"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"512\" height=\"420\" src=\"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/512px-Giovanna_Garzoni00.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-2036\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/512px-Giovanna_Garzoni00.jpg 512w, http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/06\/512px-Giovanna_Garzoni00-300x246.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 512px) 100vw, 512px\" \/><figcaption>Painting of Figs and Beetle, by Giovanna Garzoni (1600-1670)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h4 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Colleen Anderson<\/h4>\n\n\n\n<p>She organizes, mindlessly<br>scurrying back and forth<br>bringing in groceries, creating lunches<br>filing, ensuring all things ordered<br>sometimes it seems she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s rolling shit uphill<br>when no one watches she stretches<br>an extra set of legs, pretends to dance<br>yet worries discovery means more work<br>\u00c2\u00a0<br>She clicks her teeth<br>a hard rasp, mandibles to cut<br>her frustration, dirty clothes on beds<br>soiled dishes on counters, ties<br>to obligations, her self unattended<br>the reasons he can\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t paint, or clean or love<br>she may as well be a bug, a beetle<br>for all she gets underfoot<br>\u00c2\u00a0<br>She is good, so very good<br>staying in line, following the rules<br>they don\u00e2\u20ac\u2122t notice her eyes watching<br>everything, the many facets<br>as she sits so very very still, pinned<br>as if under glass, inspecting every grain<br>the small secrets under the bed<br>tucked in a pocket, hidden in an external account<br>\u00c2\u00a0<br>She has her own secret<br>wedged beneath her strong chitin shell<br>the beautiful clothes her city camouflage<br>feelings shielded from a careless brushoff<br>how she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s kept her hopes, desires to change<br>release erotic dreams burrowed away<br>and most of all her wish to be alive<br>not just a jewelled makech on a chain<br>\u00c2\u00a0<br>Some day soon she will spread protective elytra<br>drop the guise that she cares<br>reveal her inner self, the vestigial heart<br>stretch out her wings, fly high<br>into the woods, a city, another home<br>where she will change, be seen<br>for what she is, no longer hide her strength<br>and what she will become\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Colleen Anderson She organizes, mindlesslyscurrying back and forthbringing in groceries, creating lunchesfiling, ensuring all things orderedsometimes it seems she\u00e2\u20ac\u2122s rolling shit uphillwhen no one watches she stretchesan extra set of legs, pretends to danceyet worries discovery means more work\u00c2\u00a0She clicks her teetha hard rasp, mandibles to cuther frustration, dirty clothes on bedssoiled dishes on counters, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2035","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-poem"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2035","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2035"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2035\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2040,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2035\/revisions\/2040"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2035"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2035"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.polutexni.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2035"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}